An Invitation to Play

Self Forgiveness

Thanks for sharing your feelings, it sounds like a lot and also totally understandable. The rejection piece 🧩 feels most painful and I’d like to encourage you to stay with and track the experience around that core wound. I see you’re doing a good job staying anchored in gratitude, so it’s ok to really sit in the hard feelings, it will help with the self forgiveness. This is a powerful moment of alchemy, just being with and naming the feelings. Be the cauldron, container for the medicine bubbling and chaotically frothing around over the heat of the flame 🔥 of truth.

Reparenting

Be the loving parent to your inner children, who have been neglected and emotionally abandoned.

Mother Earth: Welcome to the planet. Welcome to existence. Everyone’s here. Everyone’s here.

Little Luna, Little Stephen, we are going to have a tea party! I have some friends I would like you to meet. We are going to have some Ginger Peach tea and we can play and cry and laugh together. We can even have a conversation, if you feel like it. Does that sound good?

Little Luna: What if I don’t feel like it? Can we just make stuff?

Mother Earth: Of course, Luna! It’s your life. You can do anything you like. How about you, Stephen?

Little Stephen: I don’t know. I’m tired.

Mother Earth: Have a good nap then. We will start the party whenever you are ready.

I will keep your friends company while we wait. We will be here whenever you are ready to play.

I will make some cards and place settings for everyone, so we all know where to sit and to make sure there is room enough for everyone.

Intermission

Little Luna: Look what I made? A tetrahedron, an octahedron, an icosahedron, a cuboctahedron, and a two- and a three-frequency truncated icosahedron.

Mother Earth: Wonderful! They are so beautiful! That’s just the way I like to make things.

Little Stephen: I’m bored.

Mother Earth: How was your nap, Stephen!

Little Stephen: It was okay. I kept waking up, but I just wanted to sleep.

Mother Earth: Oh. Do you have something on your mind?

Little Stephen: No one wants to play.

Mother Earth: Did you ask them if they wanted to play?

Little Stephen: Well, not exactly.

Mother Earth: Maybe we can have a party, then.

Little Luna: Can I come, too?

Mother Earth: Of course, Luna. I made a guest list and sent out all the invitations. And guess what?

Little Luna and Little Stephen: What?

Mother Earth: They would all be delighted to come. Look! They all sent letters and pictures and all sorts of presents, too! Come see!

Little Luna: Oh, yes! Yes, please.

Mother Earth: Let’s wait until they all arrive, and then we can open up the gifts at the party.

Little Stephen: Do we have to wait? Can’t we open them now?

Mother Earth: Each of our guests would like to give their presents in person. Would that be okay, Stephen? I think they each have a special message for you.

Look how many guests are coming! Isn’t this exciting! We might have to throw a feast. Then, we can take our time.

• Overwhelm
• Sadness
• Anger
• Frustration
• Fear
• Paralysis
• Confusion
• Forgetfulness
• Ignorance
• Myopia
• Inconsideration
• Regret
• Stuck
• Damned
• Guilt
• Shame
• Punished
• Helpless
• Unfulfilled
• Useless
• Pointless
• Worthless
• Lost
• Fatigued
• Scared
• Speechless
• Curious
• Surprised
• Beguiled
• Unseen
• Neglected
• Forgotten
• Searching
• Longing
• Anticipation
• Illumination
• Driven
• Enslaved
• Oppressed
• Exploited
• Expendable
• Unappreciated
• Expectation
• Put upon
• Abused
• Frenzied
• Harassed
• Tired
• Exhausted
• Restless
• Misunderstood
• Overlooked
• Rejected
• Hard-hearted
• Callous
• Indifferent
• Cold
• Rational
• Logical
• Unemotional
• Biased
• Prejudiced
• Racist
• Oppositional
• Defiant
• Wicked
• Judged
• Convicted
• Terrified
• Tormented
• Contorted
• Twisted
• Deluded
• Objectified
• Mystified
• Broken
• Burned Out
• Depressed
• Anxious
• Distraught
• Dejected
• Incredulous
• Cynical
• Nihilistic
• Confounded
• Dismayed
• Hopeful
• Desperate
• Resigned
• Hesitant
• Second-guessing
• Doubtful
• Unsure
• Ambivalent
• Insignificant
• Unwanted
• Insecure
• Nervous
• Lonely
• Alone
• Outraged
• Hateful
• Contemplative
• Regretful
• Sorrowful
• Morbid
• Defeated
• Hopeless
• Suicidal
• Grateful
• Gracious
• Grief
• Abandoned
• Solace
• Embracing
• Wonder
• Centred
• Calm
• Meditative
• Loving
• Accepting
• Inclusive
• Welcoming
• Safe
• Vulnerable
• Connected
• Inspired
• Awe
• Joyful
• Comforted
• Consoled
• Relieved
• Released
• Healed
• Forgiven
• Held
• Restored
• Rejuvenated
• Delighted
• Loved
• Oneness
• Equanimity
• Recognized
• Acknowledged
• Seen
• Heard
• Accepted
• Embraced
• Integrated
• Whole
• Resonance
• Harmony
• Peace
• Nurtured
• Fulfilled
• Meaningful
• Purposeful
• Protected
• Cherished
• Precious
• Faith
• Hope
• Love